Dear Readers and Friends,
Today as 2008 draws to a close is the end of this blog and blogging, after a few late hopeful false starts.
After spending a few weeks thinking really really hard, I’ve determined that I need to let go of blogging. I am going into hiding. It is probably the wrong choice. I often make those by mistake.
What I’m starting to understand is that I haven’t dealt with the things that have happened in a way that facilitates moving on and at a point where I needed to. 'Ghosts' are everywhere and they love sneaking up on you to ruin your happy-for-once-in-your-life party. My soul is haunted at the moment. I actually haven't a damn clue how to get through this bit on my own but I will hopefully figure it out and maybe one day return to the happy point I had reached. Though time is against me now.
I want to thank each and every person who has read this blog, my latter attempt at photo blogging at Carousel - and my old blog Making Headlines where I met all of you. I sincerely appreciate all of you, your support and I wish you all the best with your political and personal blogging.
It’s hard to say goodbye to something I loved, that I relied upon and that was a soft cushion of support when things got muddled. I adored getting comments. I loved that. I felt like I was talking to this blog, A Dirty Martini, when I wrote on these pages and all of you, as a good, good friend. She and you all were good friends. This and my old blog MakingHeadlines have been wonderful warm places to voice opinions, hear opinions, share some views, rant, post some pictures and above all meet some very cherished people.
I won't be around on email but I’ll keep this blog up for a while if you want to read any of the old political stuff. The personal stuff is awkward hopeful soul searching. I almost got there. But now it feels like my soul is exposed for no good reason. I just cannot bring myself to delete this blog because it and Making Headlines were a significant part of my life.
Best wishes, happy new year to you all and lots of love,
Alison
